Several days have gone by and I have not been able to think of anything to write. I have looked at some prompts that held my interest, but I can’t seem to get my thoughts together on any of them right now. I don’t know why this happens to me so often and it is very disturbing to me that at times my mind is full of words and rhymes that seem to flow effortlessly while writing posts and at other times there is absolutely nothing. I can deal with going a day or two but when this ‘thing’ lasts for a week or more it really bothers me, so I decided to just start pecking on the keyboard to write about my thoughts on this issue of mine and maybe something decent will be borne from it.
As I am typing now I have absolutely no idea if I will end up with a poem or just a regular post, but today has been a bit foggy with everything that I tried to do around the house such as putting a chicken in the oven and completely forgetting about it. The fact that my sense of smell is not so keen does not help much when my short-term memory is compromised along with my foggy overall thinking on days like these. It was the kids who informed me that I needed to check dinner because it had ‘been in there too long’ just before my husband came in from work exclaiming the same and of course, I smoothed things over by explaining to my hungry family that the chicken did not burn in the oven, but that it was just a little too brown. That’s my story and I’m sticking to it. I am glad to say that these incidents do not occur often, it’s just a tad too frequent for me as I piddle around – not disgusted or depressed but rather…slightly disenchanted. Needless to say, I will be very thankful when whatever it is has run its course and finally ends.
Despite my current temporary funk, the kids are still running around playing and joshing ever so loudly so all is still well other than the fact that my brain keeps drawing a big fat blank – the noise…I love and hate it all at the same time.
Meanwhile, here goes something…hopefully it will not turn out to be nothing.
For the record, my six-year-old just came in to tell me that he really enjoyed my wonderfully burnt chicken and that I am the best cook in the world. This either means that we really need to get out more, or the boy has an unnatural relationship with food that needs to be addressed immediately…maybe a little of both, but here goes:
My renewable solitude
Where I can be nice or even rude
Feelings stay in my pocket until I make them known
Yet they all understand when my symptoms are full-blown
Nights are too short but the days are long
I am constantly covered whether I’m right or wrong
I can think and say whatever I feel
I can perfectly cook or even burn a meal
Despite it all, I live with true love
Settled in this place like a hand in glove
My commitment here is worth more than gold
My intent is to stay put until at last I am old
No matter how rough or ragged the road
I shall make the best of my cozy, humble abode
Tranquil fantasies often blend in with my nightmares
Sleep deprived but well rested because someone cares
Good days and not – all are cherished the same
Mama and Wife are my first and last names
Though not necessarily do they come in that order
They maintain their presence when I reach that dreaded border
Of the last of my sanity – when at my wit’s end
Feeling abandoned – lacking family or friend
My quick fix is in the eyes of three loving brown pairs
I realize again why my life was spared
To see their smiles and be disturbed by happy noise
My reason for living is one girl and two boys
They love unconditionally when I can’t and when I can
I must give props to their dad – a hard-working man
Many a struggle has invaded and burst through our front door
But love and faith taught us what togetherness is for
I learn as I go while using what I was taught
I refuse to have had my folks go through all that trouble for naught
In spite of my imaginings, I embrace my today
Never trading out my years to live in another way
This group never fails to succeed when my mind is aloof
In giving me in hopes of what’s in store for us under the same roof
Jun 15, 2013 @ 20:40:44
I have heard it said that to end a dry writing spell, one must pick up a pen or keyboard and simply begin…I, too, have times when not one smidgen of an idea or prompt catches hold, but when you begin to write this post, obviously it worked. Loved the chicken story….so me…and as always I like your expressions in verse. Keep on writing.
Jun 16, 2013 @ 02:54:26
Some days I am more creative than others and that really is a normal way to be. Do not despair if you feel less than creative some days or poetry does not flow. Perhaps the muse is waiting to show at another moment.. 🙂
Jun 17, 2013 @ 01:58:13
AH! The “interference” of everyday life! Do not fret or worry; your muse is just on simmer. The poem is wonderful!
Jun 17, 2013 @ 04:12:49
Thank you all for your comments. From now on, I will just have to remind myself to ‘just do it’ when in doubt. I appreciate the encouragement from you all! By the way, my husband decided to buy dinner for Father’s Day…hint-hint??? 🙂